Funeral Wishes

So...the funeral. I'm hoping it was what Layne wanted. I will remember the chaos in attempting to get ready. I will also remember that all of it would have been much worse without all of the help that was given. There was help for the funeral, help for getting financial items in order, help with missing him and transitioning to a new normal (although, that obviously continues to be a work in progress). We also had some help around the house and lots of other things as well. Thank you to one and all.
I tried to honor what Layne and I had talked about when planning for the funeral and burial. I knew he would be watching.:} I knew he would notice the details - and whether they were 'right' or not. I also knew there were some details that could go any number of ways as far as he was concerned. It makes me smile to think of him being a bit of a micromanager about so many things and remembering that occasionally there were times when he wasn't really concerned about the details. There wasn't much middle ground with him.

To Do List

So much to do. I think I've said that before - but, seriously...it's true. We just got back from a trip to Nauvoo for a reunion with my family. Layne has not been feeling well. He chose to go anyway. If things continue as they are it will be his last one. He spent a good chunk of time resting in our room. (The room just happened to be perfect for a guy that needed to be close to a bathroom and still have it be quiet in a house full of about twenty or so people. Once the door was closed, we truly couldn't tell that there was even anyone else in the house. We stayed in the Hyrum Smith home. It was perfect for what we needed. A big thank you to the reunion planners, our 'housemates', and my parents.)
Now that we are back we get to catch up on a few things and dig into what needs to be done next. The garden and yard need some work. Then there's the mail, the laundry, and the grocery store. Oh, and all of the messages that didn't get taken care of during the week. (We didn't have any reception while we were there.) There's also the regrouping with the kids. There are always projects to work on, things to do, and places to go. We still need to work on the people to see one.
I have been reminded again today that if something needs to be done around here. I'm the one that gets to be in charge of it. Layne is just not up for more than sitting these days. That...and telling the rest of us what to do. He's always been good at that. We'll know he's truly losing his battle when he chooses to give up on micromanaging.
I have made a list of things to do. Now, if I just had the get up and go...I would get up and go.