Partner In Crime

So after a few moments of feeling lighter and like I could conquer the world - not really - I was feeling that light, confident, and productive. But, I was also still in reality. I thought I was going to be prepared for the day. I wasn't. By the end of the day I was exhausted, frustrated, and feeling defeated. There are things to do, people to work with, and disappointments that come. Reality hits even harder when things get tough and there is no one to lean on at the end of the day.
Taking a moment...
I had to pause for a moment to cry and attempt to recognize if that's what I really meant. There were things that happened yesterday that were hard. I felt the demands and pressure of things needing to get done. There were things that didn't go as smoothly as I hoped or thought they would. I was thinking that the issues of the day were with current details and concerns. I didn't think about the possibility of underlying reasons. Duh. Maybe part of my struggle yesterday was feeling like I was making decisions on my own - even though there were people here to help. (Thankfully!) I have no 'partner in crime' anymore.