Kids Adjusting

As I've been thinking about things I'm grateful for this past week - I have been grateful that we homeschool. One of the things I love is that we could be together after Layne's death and funeral. We were able to process in a way that felt so much more natural and connected. I'm not sure how I would have rushed them off to school with the knowledge that they would be expected to concentrate on other things. I also know that they would have been expected to accomplish a few things in between attending school and going to bed at night. I don't think it would have been healthy to place the burden on them to just ignore their father's death and all of the thoughts and feelings that go along with it.
They seem to be managing relatively well. I don't think that would have happened in a classroom.

Two Weeks

Today marks two whole weeks since Layne had to leave. In a way it seems like it just happened. In other ways it seems like it has been so very long. I miss him. I don't miss taking care of a loved one 24/7. I miss the guy that would have already gone for a run, prepared for the day, and be at work right now. It would be great if his being gone was just for a brief period of time. But right now, the possibility of several decades doesn't seem very brief. It's probable that our time apart will be longer than the time we had together.