Update

I realized I haven't given much of an update. It seems like there was awhile when I just felt like I couldn't get anything done...wasn't able to make things happen. I feel like I've been doing better with that lately. I have been able to do better about having a plan and accomplishing at least something every day. 

I've also been able to do a bit more with routines. Things that help me take care of me and take care of the kids...and all the other details that go along with being in charge of everything around here.

The kids have been helpful in their own ways. I'm so appreciative of them and all that they bring to our family. I'm hoping we'll be able to continue moving forward.

Two Weeks

Today marks two whole weeks since Layne had to leave. In a way it seems like it just happened. In other ways it seems like it has been so very long. I miss him. I don't miss taking care of a loved one 24/7. I miss the guy that would have already gone for a run, prepared for the day, and be at work right now. It would be great if his being gone was just for a brief period of time. But right now, the possibility of several decades doesn't seem very brief. It's probable that our time apart will be longer than the time we had together.

Evening Routine

Tonight we actually did most of our evening routine. The kids got ready for bed, we read scriptures, and prayed. After the kids got in bed, Layne read to them and I sang to the girls and then talked with and prayed with the boys. So nice to have an evening that was life as usual. We're hoping to regroup this week and get back into a somewhat regular routine. It was so great to feel 'normal' for a little bit even though our husband and dad is still not feeling his best.