Bleh...

I've been feeling a little bit grouchy today. I'm tired and just don't have any energy. Of coarse, I still get to make sure kids have dinner...and someone gets to do the laundry for tomorrow. Oh. And, one of the kids just told me the light was burned out in the basement. It just keeps going and I want to stop.
I have done a terrible job of getting things done the last little while. I think that might be part of the funk I'm in - thinking about all the things that need to be done and yet not feeling like doing them. Bleh.
I have to add that while I was doing laundry, I pulled out one of the kids bunched up shirts. It was one of the 'no one fights alone' shirts that Becca made for us when Layne and Jacob ran the 5K. It felt like a reminder. Somehow I was aware that Layne was trying to tell me that he would do the laundry if he were able. I always appreciated his willingness to help.

Missing Layne

I'm a little concerned this morning about how to get everything done. I don't know how to be two people. Layne was so helpful. There were things he took care of that I didn't even worry about because I knew he had it covered. There were things that he would see needed to be done and he would just do it. (I remember him hauling laundry up and down two flights of stairs when I was pregnant. He just sort of took over doing the laundry for awhile.) I've decided I don't really like being the one to be in charge of everything. I wasn't looking forward to that part - now I know why - truthfully, I don't think there were any parts of Layne being gone that I looked forward to...

Little Things

Nice to see Layne's running clothes in the laundry today. It was mostly a walk...but, still. He ran part of the way. I think he's glad he went. He was told that moving around a bit would help him feel better and give him more energy. He's working with the Wellness Center on a fitness program they've put together for him.