I've ben thinking this morning about the past year. Last year at this time Layne was still able to function. We thought the treatment he was getting was helping - at least that was the hope. At one point, we got the news that a scan showed the tumors had shrunk a bit. That was a very good thing. Things were kept at bay for awhile. I watched him get more tired throughout the experience. I watched as he became a little weaker.
The trips to Houston eventually ended. His experience at MD Anderson was over. I then watched as he was told that there was nothing else to be done. The only offering was the chance to be comfortable at home until the inevitable happened. I don't think anyone is ever prepared to hear that bit of news. There are some things that don't take very long to say and yet they literally have a life altering effect. We knew it was coming. But, one is still never fully prepared.
Once home, quality of life continued to go down. It was hard to watch a guy that is athletic, has a keen mind, is a 'doer', a finder of solutions - one who participates fully in life - deteriorate to someone who can only watch and wait.
Isn't it incredible to think that he is once again that guy who is athletic, with a keen mind, a doer, a finder of solutions? I am eager to see how he will continue to participate as fully in your lives as he is able. I have no doubts that he will.
ReplyDeleteI told the kids that I thought the first thing he did when he got to the spirit world was to take a good, long run. :-) I hope the memories of him as a whole, healthy Layne will come back soon, in place of the harder ones. But I know he's there.
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