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Friday, December 18, 2015

Star Wars VII

I went to Star Wars VII with the boys last night. Tempting...but, I will not give out any spoilers. You're welcome. The experience reminded me of Layne. It reminded me that if he were here he would have been there too. Or, maybe he and I would have seen it together at some point. I also couldn't miss the gap that was felt when it came to he and the boys going to see a movie together. They used to go to see all the live action films together. It's been a thing for them. I can also see in my mind a picture of him being excited about seeing it. Last night the boys felt the excitement - fun to watch. Layne would have been the same way - although, probably a little more dignified about it. I even thought of Layne as our oldest was a bit anxious about getting there on time.
We had a conversation about how the first movie that same kid could have been in the theatre for was a Star Wars movie. But, his dad was a little nervous/hesitant about it. I was all ready to just 'wear' my infant. But, he was concerned. Looking back...I should have put up more of a 'fight'. Oh well.

Tuesday, December 1, 2015

This...


This is how I will remember Layne. This is from September 2012. I will remember the smile and the blue eyes (not the dark, foreboding color the was visible at the end). I will remember the casualness of the pose and setting. He's comfortable. I will remember the Padres hat that was worn so much it faded to a different color. I always thought of it representing San Diego and the beach more than for the team it represented. I will remember the guy with a body that had muscles (not the most recent skin and bones version). I look at this picture and I can almost hear his laugh.