Results

Layne really did get results on Friday. I should have already posted..haven't been feeling too great. But, that's another post.
There's been more growth. The oncologist is going to get him into another trial as soon as it's available. I knew at some point we'd be back to more growth - I just didn't really want it to come. When I found out - my heart sank. I cried. My first reaction was the thought that it just means the time for him to go is closer than it was before. I already knew that - I guess technically everyday is one day closer. It just feels so much more real. And that's the hard part. It's easier to pretend when things are going more smoothly.

Another Scan

Layne had another scan today. We won't know results until Friday. But, we did find out that Layne has some blood clots again. So, it's back to the needle in the side each morning. Neither one of us is looking forward to that. We'll see who ends up wielding the needle. I started to when he had them last time. But, then I was gone for a couple of days and he just started doing them himself. So much for the 'care giver' title. I'm not sure I do much.
The visit to the doctor on Friday will tell us if there have been any changes in Layne and if there will be any adaptations to his current treatment. It's always a 'wait and see'.

Always a Runner

I was thinking this morning about Layne running his 5K tomorrow. I was reminded of him running a full marathon in 2011. He was all set to run a Ragnar in 2012. But, ended up having surgery the day before instead of being with his team. (He was hoping he could have the surgery and then still run after recovering. It was about a month from the time we found out he needed a surgery until the time he actually was scheduled for it. I guess he thought two or three weeks was enough time to recover from a surgery and still compete in a Ragnar. When it took some time to get the surgery scheduled, he started thinking that maybe - just maybe - the surgery would be after the race. No such luck.)
Our stake has a 5K they've sponsored for the community the last several years. In 2013, our family ran/walked it together. Layne wasn't doing any running at the time. I remember it was very hard to watch someone I love - that considers themselves a runner - not be able to run a 5K. It was hard realizing he really struggled with the fact that he just wasn't able to do it. A harsh reality for someone who used to consider a 5K enough to count for an 'easy' day of exercise, but certainly not a challenge. The challenge would be in trying for a faster time or some other personal best...not the distance.
This year, 2014, he'll be running the 5K that goes along with the Salt Lake marathon. Jacob will be running with him. It's interesting to me that there's something to remember from each year. I wonder what 2015 will bring. (Maybe I'll try (walking) one with him.) I'm reminded that 'once a runner, always a runner'.

Another 5K Post

I had another idea this morning. I was thinking about the fact that some of my family members have offered to run a 5K on Saturday morning in order to support Layne and Jacob in their run. Or, maybe it's mostly to honor Layne and have something else that we can remember together as a family.
I had an idea to have as many people as we can run a 5K that morning. It would be fun to see how many people could do it and from how many different places. We could go from coast to coast.
If there were more time, I would put it out there on some social media and we could see if we'd be able to get someone from every state...every continent...whatever.:]
Hmm...where to go from here. I think I'm just glad he's doing this. He had a tough time yesterday with his run - so, I'd like to give more support somehow. It wouldn't even matter if people ran, walked, strolled, hopped, skipped...

Another Runner

Jacob has decided to run with Layne in the 5K this Saturday. He's been running faster than Layne for the last little bit. I think he started out acting as if he was sprinting and wondering why his Dad was just doing a 'fast walk'. He's able to pace himself a little better now. It's quite possible he'll end quickly and wait for Layne at the finish line. We'll see how it works. Maybe we'll sign him up for track and field. He likes to run fast and jump - so, it might be a good fit.
Jacob is actually signed up now. If you feel so inclined to donate to Huntsman's Hometown Heroes for his run, you can do that here.

Upcoming Baptism

Rachel is going to be baptized on Saturday. Earlier today she was jumping around and saying, "I'm so excited!". Very fun. I'm glad she's excited about it and I'm glad Layne will be able to baptize her.
I remember when we first learned about Layne's cancer, it was around the time of Megan's baptism a couple of years ago. During her baptism, I couldn't help but think that Layne probably wouldn't be around for Rachel's baptism day. I think I might have cried. Partly because I was sad about that, partly because it made things seem so much more real, and partly because it started me thinking about all of the other things Layne would miss that would be milestones for the kids. That made me sad for them and for him.
I also remember being a little misty eyed at another baptism or two as the memory came back to me. I wanted Rachel to be able to remember her Dad baptizing her like he had done with the other kids. So, like I said earlier - I'm glad Layne will be able to baptize her in a couple of days.